my abuse

From the time I can remember I have been abused by my adopted brother from the age of 4 until the age off 11. At the end we did not have sex anymore, it was only touching. When that stopped we became each other enemy. Why at that time I did not understand, my brother is the biologic son of my adopted parents. When my adopted parents got divorce, my adopted mother got her self a new boyfriend, and he was an actor, and played in many children movies. He also could not keep his hands home.

He did not have sex with me, but every morning he would come and he would touch my whole body, and he always ended up at giving my butt a massage, I would always pretend that I sleep, but in fact I was hoping that it would be over soon. This abuse went on for 1 year I believe, because when I was 12 I said to my adopted mother that I hated her, and she said than you should leave the house, and in 5 min I was standing out on the streets.

I never told my mother or anybody else what happened, but when I got 15, a person said to me one day what happened between you and your brother, I feel that there is some tension, did something happened between you and him, and than I told her. I also wrote my sister a letter, because I just find out that what happened all this years that is was called incest.

But this letter went to my adopted mother, and she called me out to have a word at her home, and I went to have a talk, and her boyfriend was walking true the house, and intimidating me with his behaviour. She called me a lying and that I had too much fantasist mind. She had read that my adopted brother had sex with me, and that her new boyfriend also got not keep his hands of me, she just could believe me, she said, why would he be interested in you if he has me?!!?? I couldn’t say anything I just said I do not know either mommy. My adopted mother was very cruel with me and sadistic with me also, her way of punishing me was so strange and to bad, that is have still effect on my life as it is now.

I was 11 when I find out I was adopted, I was abused on everyway. I never dear before to come out with this story, because of fear, I do not know, but to do it like this I will do it. So here was my story. Their is so much more to say about my life, but for now it is ok, no I still have something to say, one day a friend of mine came and visit me and I have told him what happend, and he said but you never do ever against him? I said no, than he said but even it doesn't work out for you how you want, but doing nothing is like giving him the free ride in this, and he was right, he is now 70 years old, and the next day I called to police office, and the women on the phone said: can I help you? I said yes I have never done this phonecall before but I want to report my abuse to you

I have told her my story, and she was realy in shock, she just said, you have only called us to late, because you just turned 30 and that is the maximum to file report against a person.  It was 4 months to late. But she invited me anyhow to write down my story, for just in case a other child comes where it is not to late. I can could support that person. She and her college did not understand that kind of things happend in a country like holland.

About adoption: 

I was adopted from Colombia, my father never knew I was gone by adoption, when he find out, I was already gone to the Netherlands.

I was 3 years, I have stayed in the ICBF for almost 3 years, just to make sure to get me official abandon ( while I wasn’t even abandon) My parents lost me by faith I think. I have found them back, and when they saw me they hoped I was doing well al those years, they were very sad to hear about my life, now I have join a group that come's up for the rights of adoptees, and by help of this group I have found myself for once, and make something of my life.