Battle Scars

 Those invisible Battle Scars are the ones that penetrate the deepest. I can recall the 2 most degrading hateful and cold hearted things my adoptive mom ever said to me. The 1st was the day my dad passed away It was July 17 1981 after 4 yrs of suffering from his stroke my adoptive dad surcome to his demise. Durning the years he was alive n cared for at home I spent hours propped next to him in his bed I read to him talked to helped feed him I was there every minute I could as long as my adoptive mom wasn't around She despised the fact that my dad n I where close to each other Between her envy jealousy and hatred she could see straight. When she got home from work I ran and hid anywhere I could n didn't dare make a sound. That never worked though she would seek me out like a heat sinking missle snag me up by my hair get in my face and scream at me. It was always imbisle you good for nothing thing You made your father sick Once her verbal assult was over the physical assult began Between the kicking ear pinching n twisting being flung around like a ragdoll slammed into furniture and severly bruised she would restrain me in my room only after she doped me up with Thorizine for the night. The day my dad passed I had not eaten for almost two day ( another favorite thing of hers) n I was never told he had died. On the way home I had to ask about eating a question I would regret.In a split second out of no where I felt the knuckles of her hand inpact the side of my face. The force of inpact dazed me for a moment and all I remember ringing in my ears was her blood curttling scream You killed your father. She knew just how to hurt me and that comment from her still whispers to me in my mind.That's a wound that has mended some over time yet I can't imagine how any human being can be so callious and especially her She was a licensed M D with her own practice Aren't Doctors suppose to take care of human life and not destroy it My dad will b gone 30+ yrs and I'm glad he never had to see the true colors of my mom It would have broken his heart