what my mudder was saying to me when i was younger. after she gave me away.

I'm a nun and your my son.

Don't enjoy breathing or seeing.

don't enjoy food.

Don't enjoy writing

don't enjoy singing

don't enjoy bathing.

make sure you're like everyone else.

don't enjoy looking in the mirror.  don't enjoy touching or massaging yourself, or anyone else.  don't enjoy the smell of my own self-flesh.  don't enjoy working.  don't enjoy cleaning.  don't enjoy creating.  don't enjoy destroying.  don't enjoy laughing.  no having a good time in church.  no thinking of being at church while at the ocean.  1984 is not allowed at church.  no flicking cigarettes.  no taking educated guesses.  no believing in sprituality.  no thinking of my flesh and blood as a good thing.  always feel like a stalker.  never be romantic.  no thinking of stranger as being able to pray for you.  no enjoying wiping shit onfff my ass. 

no thinking. 
no seeing an evil sprity for what it is
I lov eyou.

no losing things
no forgetting where things are.
no puttinhg thing in perspective.

no fast food.

your not allowed to be alive.
always respond to evil spriits when they ask you questions in an evil way.

no breaking bottles outside.;
no breaking the rules
no calling the woman you love. 
nothinkning of evil sprit as evil.  no calling out the sprity by its name.  no enjoying life. no no no
no loving life.
no breathing. 

I love you

always think of yourself as fat.
no nuzzling with the one you love.
no giving your child away to adoption
no thinking for yoursellf.
no thinking evil thoughts
no always thinking of adoption because you hate murder.
hate love.

love mercy killing
no smiling.

no making sounds

instrumentals

http://bumptiousmusic.com/

electronic with vocals.

http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/null/01-Angry-Love.mp3
http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/null/02-Cast-Down.mp3
http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/null/03-Need-a-Thing.m4a
http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/null/04-Make-Sense.mp3
http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/null/05-Hope-Cant-See.mp3
http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/null/06-A-Note.mp3
http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/null/07-Still-Know.mp3
 

fascism and false doctrine is a common cold.

http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/unreleased/07-Storm-Drain.mp3
http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/unreleased/Staggerdrop.mp3

some movie scenes
http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/sound-design/tech-scene.mp3
http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/sound-design/tech-scene.mp3

http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/moose/mama-told-me.mp3

http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/moose/home.mp3

http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/moose/witch-devil-music.mp3
http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/moose/01-Out.mp3
http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/moose/back.mp3
http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/moose/hold-on-you.mp3

http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/moose/lake.mp3
http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/moose/smoking-and-driving.mp3

http://www.commoncoldinc.com/music/bumptious/moose/yee.mp3