mkyte6's blog

I have to add how disgusted I am by the pro-life movement, after what has happened to me....... to us, 50% of Americans are STILL pro-life which means they are pro-adoption, its not a reflection of my self-esteem but I'm the first say that I should have been aborted, I don't believe in torturing children, I also recently read that Great Britian is becoming more pro-life, its horrifying, its really up to survivors of adoption to speak out against legislation that hurts children and nothing seems to be changing, foster care children in America have follow up care, but were just bought and sold like a steak at a grocery store.

I may have found my birth mother on I was adopted.com, it might be a scam, but I'm going to pay the $10. I also received a call from an anonymous person a couple months ago, its not going to be a good conversation, especially if my bio grandparents are alive, I blame them the most, but if my father is Irish-Italian and my paternal grandparents are late immigrants (end of 20th century) I might be eligible for immigrant status, but I doubt it, I really hope I get out of this country some day. I'm wishing myself luck

If anyone knows of any resources or help for survivors of adoption in America, please let me know.
Contact Megan at 971-227-5381 or e-mail pinkfringe@yahoo.com

I've been doing some adoption research and have found some interesting data, if you go to youtube.com you can go to RT today channel and they have a couple of videos in regards to national and international adoption, in 2010 Russia just ended their adoption relationship with America, 5 Russian children were murdered and 19 cases of severe child abuse (children being burned). China as well has greatly restricted American couples to chinese children.

The World Health Organization (you can Google for more info) has reported that as of 2005 America has a real acceptance of adoption where as other countries do not, according to their findings out of every 100 live births in America 3 babies are adopted, where as western Europe has out of 100 live births only one is adopted, so this explains fascist People magazine publishing celebrity adoption presenting a false portrait of adoption.

A woman advocate, I can't remember her name, wrote a book called Chosen children (I think) you can find it on Amazon.com I tried to read it on the way to Dublin but it was too disturbing for me to read.

I would also like to extend public gratitude to the organization in NY for attempting to sue the Catholic church in regards to the priest sex abuse cover-up at The Hague, my own sex abuse was covered up by my Catholic adoptive parents and I was adopted through the Catholic church

  I hope some day to write a book on surviving adoption and stay tuned for my Teenage Guide to surviving sex abuse.

 I'm homeless again and probaly won't make it through winter, ironically I walk pass an adoption agency everyday to read my book, not inspired by Occupy Wallstreet, but i'm going to picket the place because it makes me sick.

Evidently these people are ashamed of who they are, the plaque sign out front reads ***ption agency, they don't even have the balls to advertise there business and spell it out and the place is covered with video surveillence, because the wicked need to always watch their backs.

Sign A will read  "GET A REAL JOB!"

Sign B will read "Stop selling children."

  The worst disadvantage for adopted children is the intelligence variable. My adopted mother and I were not in the 10 point ratio required to have even a limited conversation, my adopted father was a Notre Dame/University of Virginia grad but saw women as inferior, submissive and not intellectually equal, typical catholic sexism and also a symptom of low IQ.

 The largest distraction in my mother's personality was the litany of contradictions, she was always 40 pounds overweight but tried to "look nice," she had yellow teeth but wore David Yurman jewelry, she always wore colors that were bright pink or peach, fucking pastels! Insert scene where Morticia Addams chastising Debbie after placing Fester under "some strange-sexual spell." The worst criticism for a women is to be tacky or low class, and she was. She started a fake flower business and sold these HORRID flower arrangements when after a month dust collects on them. Her personality was flat, she read Danielle Steele and watched soap operas, but SEX WAS BAD, only a low IQ degenerate barbarian can sit through a daytime soap opera, while I liked poetry and could memorize my vocabulary words in 50 seconds flat.

  I was showing signs of a dissociative disorder by the time I was in high school, I met this nice boy who was a year behind me and went to the same private school as me, we met at a party, we had a great time and laughed a lot, a week later I saw him at the Kenwood mall and had no idea who he was, (I was in an altered state, he thought I was crazy) later that year he approached me after the school play to come and live with his family, they knew things were really wrong, I rarely saw that face of motherly concern that his Mom had, they were the only people that tried to save me, I said no mostly due to youthful denials and I was caught in my adopted family's web of bullshit, I wish I could say thank you to this family for trying.

6 months later I entered a mental institution after having a nervous breakdown

  I was showing signs of a dissociative disorder by the time I was in high school, I met this nice boy who was a year behind me and went to the same private school as me, we met at a party, we had a great time and laughed a lot, a week later I saw him at the Kenwood mall and had no idea who he was, (I was in an altered state, he thought I was crazy) later that year he approached me after the school play to come and live with his family, they knew things were really wrong, I rarely saw that face of motherly concern that his Mom had, they were the only people that tried to save me, I said no mostly due to youthful denials and I was caught in my adopted family's web of bullshit, I wish I could say thank you to this family for trying.

6 months later I entered a mental institution after having a nervous breakdown

  I was showing signs of a dissociative disorder by the time I was in high school, I met this nice boy who was a year behind me and went to the same private school as me, we met at a party, we had a great time and laughed a lot, a week later I saw him at the Kenwood mall and had no idea who he was, (I was in an altered state, he thought I was crazy) later that year he approached me after the school play to come and live with his family, they knew things were really wrong, I rarely saw that face of motherly concern that his Mom had, they were the only people that tried to save me, I said no mostly due to youthful denials and I was caught in my adopted family's web of bullshit, I wish I could say thank you to this family for trying.

6 months later I entered a mental institution after having a nervous breakdown

   I snuck out of the house once to hang out with this boy Jeff, from the neighborhood, when I came home my parents caught me, my father had me by the neck up against the wall with his fist back as if to punch me, luckily my adoptive mother stopped him.

 My adoptive brother was abused before I was, I remember crying in my room, terrified of the fighting downstairs, one night it escalated, my adoptive father hit my brother and gave him a bloody nose and my brother had to stay home from school, he never touched my brother again.

  They always knew to never to leave bruises.

   I just want to publicly say to anyone who has been adopted and abused, get help for any psychological effects, seek the advice of an attorney and file a complaint with the police, the most tragic mistake is I could have sued and went to the police waaaay before I did, but didn't know my rights.

  If you don't move on with your life THEY WIN!!!

  In addition to all the shit I went through my adopted "mother" stole thousands of dollars from a trust fund left to me by my adopted grandmother, they lied to me for years, I only found out about the theft from a clerical error through the bank. My attorney was able to recover some of it, I decided not to pursue a civil suit because I want to move on with my life.

  I went out to the country and burned all the legal documents so my past literally went up in smoke and blew away in the wind.

  After years of being told I was a piece of shit, one morning my mother was yelling about how terrible I was and how I wasn't perfect enough, I'll never forget looking down at my bowl of cereal and saying in my head, "When is this going to stop?" I got up from the table pushed her to the floor pointed my finger at her and said "If you ever talk to me that way again....." I can't remeber what else I said.

  I would cry myself to sleep praying my biological mother would "save me" but she never came. By the time I was 15 my adoptive mother decided she didn't want to be a Mom anymore so I was sent to boarding school, I had no mother or father for 2 years of highschool.

 In middle school, there was a man at our kitchen door interrogating my adopted mother, somehow he knew I was being abused by her, he kept trying to peer over my adopted mother's shoulder to see if I was okay, I kept looking over her shoulder to look at him, my adopted mother kept trying to block his view of me, I wish I had the courage to yell but was terrified, my adoptive mother being a psychopath used her charm to get herself out of it, the man left, I never saw him again.

 A couple of years ago, I had new memories resurface about what I went through, after being sexually abused by my adopted brother, I told my adoptive parents and they told me not to tell anyone, they protected him, he was never punished. I also remebered one of the first incidents and I remember that one of his friends new what he was doing to me and he didn't do anything.