It is Time to Tell My Story! No More Hiding, No More Shame!!

*adoptive mother (am)  *adoptive father (af)  *adopted brother (ab)  *step-father (sf)

I was adopted when I was 17 days old.  According to me *am, she and my *af had asked the agency for a boy.  When they called her to tell her they had a girl available they decided to adopt me with the understanding that they would also wait for their boy.  My *am told me they only took me because a boy wasn't available and they had waited 10 years to adopt a child.  She made it very clear that I was not really wanted.  My *am was disappointed that I cried alot, not understanding that a baby is grieving when they are taken from their mommy and was angry I would not let her hold or comfort me.  My *af was the one that I bonded with and it was obvious that he adored me by looking at the photos of he and I.  He always had a look of pride on his face and I looked so content, so safe in his arms.