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My name is Luda and I was born in russian on Sep. 16, 1990. My birth mother gave me up and put me in the orphanage when i was 3 years old. Anyways, I got adopted sep. 12th, 2002. Me and my brothers room was on the third floor, where my adoptive dads exercise room was. (yes, no one would have been able to see or here anything and i think thats why he picked that room for me). Anyways, few days after adopting me, he started to come upstairs and touching me at first. He would touch me between my legs and massage there while i saw his "privet part" get big. He would also touch my brests and my butt and my butthole. He would make out with me and than move my head twords his hardness and make me play with it with my hands and mouth. He would also take me "one on one" trips and do stuff like that to me. He than would always buy me something. (hello, i do not know why no one in my family "adoptive family" thought it was wierd that he would buy me sooo many things and not buy much for anyone else) He did this too me for about 2/3 years. I mean after that i would go out a lot with friends and have lots of sleep overs at their houses and never tried to make time to stay home anymore. Well, after a while I would have friends over at my house and out of know where he would start yalling at me, and would call me names and hit me. (Yes, I have friends who saw him yell at me and hit me). Thats when I began to sneak out and do drugs and drink a lot. I tried to kill myself about 5 times and almost did it once, but my doc said thanks to my bestie i would have died in my sleep. I have been in the (i don't know how to spell it but thats the place where people who try to kill some one or them selvs or are depressed big time) I was there about 3 times. I am almost 20 now, married and have an eight month old son, and this is still ruining my life. I am thinking about taking him to court but i don't know if it is too late or not. I mean I can not handle this anymore, and if i was a little more smarter than i would have opend my mouth. But i was scared, and i was really scared of being put back in a group home and being by my self again. (If this has ever happend to you, or is happening to you now, please speak up. Say something or do something "not illegal though" I mean call the cops or CPS. Do not let anyone ruin your life and take your innocents away.)