Submitted by babytears on Sat, 10/10/2009 - 13:16.
I too have tried for YEARS to win my adoptive parents love and affection. An apology from them would have even sufficed for the way they treated me and my sister......but I still am terrified of them and when I do visit for the purpose of gathering info to help me with my search for my birth family, I can only bear a couple of days. If I stay any longer I too get panic attacks that they will kill me in my sleep or something. They have made themselves very clear that I am not wanted and accepted by them for who I am. Once I get the information I need from them, I do not plan on resuming contact. They are sick, twisted people. I to this day have no idea why they hit us...nearly every single day! And I would not be suprised if adoptive dad hit me again, now at the mature age of 36, if he wanted to. He is so full of himself and very compettive as my partner put it.
So have I
I too have tried for YEARS to win my adoptive parents love and affection. An apology from them would have even sufficed for the way they treated me and my sister......but I still am terrified of them and when I do visit for the purpose of gathering info to help me with my search for my birth family, I can only bear a couple of days. If I stay any longer I too get panic attacks that they will kill me in my sleep or something. They have made themselves very clear that I am not wanted and accepted by them for who I am. Once I get the information I need from them, I do not plan on resuming contact. They are sick, twisted people. I to this day have no idea why they hit us...nearly every single day! And I would not be suprised if adoptive dad hit me again, now at the mature age of 36, if he wanted to. He is so full of himself and very compettive as my partner put it.